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well, it’s wednesday. what now?

I think… the difference is I am starting to believe in myself.

again.

finally.

Instead of cleaning house, doing laundry, grocery shopping or a eleventy kajillion billion other things I should be doing while I’m home alone - I showered, put on a dress and starting shooting myself (with a camera, duh).

I needed a new more straight-on photo for my sxswi badge. I’ve been using a crop of an amazing portrait of me shot by my friend Rannie Turingan for a few years now because I love how he made me look like such a rock star. To raise funds for his trip down to atx he’s running a  “Send a Kid to Camp” special - I already paypal’d him money to do another photo shoot where I’m sure he’ll make me look greater than I am every day. He’s THAT talented! I am so excited - I can’t wait.

But for now, I figured it was time for a new photo for my badge that shows my shorter hair do and wrinkles and imperfect skin. I’m moderately pretty okay with this one. And to make things simple, so you know who I am wherever you find me on the interweb - I’ve replaced my avatar everywhere. I think.

adding to the original post… So the one other thing I worry about is (because I worry too much over silly things sometimes) if I have a photo that I like of myself and then don’t necessarily look that good in person because I am having an off day or whatever - will people be disappointed? If you know me and have seen me recently, let me know, please.

So whatcha think? Am I hot or not? (Well, if not - don’t answer. I’m fragile.)

originally uploaded by projekt202.

It’s been a year since you left, Ren. And I still really miss you.

You’re still in my IM contacts and in the phonebook on my old phone, because it doesn’t feel right to delete or remove you. Sitting at your old computer at work, when I put iTunes on shuffle, every once in a while a song that you left will come up and make me smile. It’s kinda like you’re saying “hi.”

I hope you’re doing well where you are now. Really. I hope that things are better. I hope that you’re at peace.

So it’s getting close to sxsw and the whole city is buzzing. I’m hearing from friends from all over the country (and continent - O hai Canada!) and it’s like summer camp is coming. Or if summer camp was horrific - it’s like Christmas. Or Spring Break. Well it IS Spring Break but not the Girls Gone Wild one so much…

I’m rambling again. Get to the point girl…

So anyway. The coffee shop that is next door to my office does an unofficial, no wristband or badge required music showcase every sxsw. And this year is no different. The progress showcase will be on March 13. I was doing my duty as a devoted patron and spreading the word about the show when I really looked at the bands in the line up.

David Wingo? Ola Podrida? But wait - they’re from Brooklyn… But geez that sounds so familiar. So I hop on google and do a little reading and it IS the David Wingo that I know from high school. And the band name IS based on what was the coolest craft mall with multi-level wooden floors and little shops where we went and saw the creepy marionette puppet shows, Olla Podrida. Wow. WOW! Of all the places to do a showcase in Austin… I mean there’s hundreds of locations. And here is where he ends up for a show, next door to me. He goes on at noon - if I end up working that day I am totally taking my lunch break then.

I happen to know where my old high school year books are in my house. And so I pulled out my senior year book, 1992, and there inside the front cover is a note from David Wingo that made me smile all over again. Too cool.

Oh and I really like the album. A lot. A LOT a lot (why didn’t I find this earlier?). I bought and downloaded it from iTunes tonight and have a feeling that it will be getting major frequent play by me.

Listening… well the best way to describe it is… I’m really proud of David. Wow. You did it. You made it. You’re doing what you love and doing it well and saying something to people. To a lot of people. I’m impressed but not surprised. I’m just, well, proud.

*smile*

ola podrida: on myspace
ola podrida: on last.fm
ola podrida: at sxsw 08

“I still believe in Hope - mostly because there’s no such place as Fingers Crossed, Arkansas.”
- Molly Ivins

“Ah, but there IS a Toad Suck, Arkansas. :)”
- e.

Today, that is all.

(for those that asked, yes, I’m fine. I just sat down to write and all that came out was a sigh.)