distrust
It’s not feeling very secure around here any more. I know that there are people reading that I don’t really want to let into my life any more, particularly people who have cut me out of their lives. I feel like any vulnerability I reveal could be used against me. And yes, that may seem a tad paranoid - but that’s how I feel.
But it’s more than that. And less that that. The truth of the matter is I don’t feel the want or need to share all of my life with just anyone and everyone.
I want and need to be more protective of what’s going on with me, as well as adjust some of the signal to noise ratio in my life.
So yeah, there’s a little bit of a “fuck you” to this.
But what is “this” and what does “this” mean? I will soon be password protecting the whole shebang here or at least all of the personal bits. I plan to do it in a way that should not be a pain in the ass (or will be a minimal pain the ass) for those of you that want to read (and that I want reading). I don’t plan to mass email/spam people. I’ll share the login info in some way that only people I trust will get it. If you KNOW me, you know how to get in touch with me and you can ask me for this info. Chances are very very high that if you ask I will give it to you because I seriously doubt that the people I no longer trust would have the balls to ask. And if they do ask, I will have the balls to say No.
This isn’t meant to be dramatic - melo or otherwise. Some of you have made choices and because of those choices you just don’t get to have this anymore.
How long it will take to do this - I don’t know. I need to do some thinking and some planning so that I can make this a place where I feel safe to share what I want with those I trust.
